The most dominant thought running through my head when I first started this was “I am about to discover just how boring my job is.” And I was 100% right.
I don’t consider myself a very jealous person but one thing I do get jealous of is people who love their jobs. People who can spend hours lost in their work only coming up for air when their bladder can’t take any more pressure and pain. Or their stomach is slowly consuming them from the inside out. I’m jealous of people who get live in their flow and get paid to do it.
Living in the flow is amazing. Magical even. How hours and time can just disappear because you’re so absorbed in what you’re doing. I’m not unfamiliar with the experience but it definitely doesn’t happen as often as I would like. And while maybe it used to happen in my job when I first started, any moments living in flow happen outside of work now.
I never realized how much time I kill a work. Especially during our off season when things just aren’t as busy. And when you can’t kill time reading articles on the internet or listening to podcasts or YouTube videos, how do you kill time?
I’ve been choosing writing, Duolingo, and online classes as my new time fillers.
- I have a page downloaded from the internet with 365 days of writing prompts. These have definitely helped and a couple of poems have come out of them, but I find them tedious after a while. And I’m still too intimidated to work on anything real… Blogging is another good time filler though. But how many posts can one person really make before chasing away readers?
- Duolingo is another great option. Learning Spanish has fallen of my list of priorities lately, partially because I don’t foresee traveling anywhere where I need to speak Spanish in the near future. Duolingo is a great little way to practice Spanish without a lot of effort. Plus, you can turn off the sound features and just work on vocabulary and grammar without doing the listening and speaking exercises.
- The final time filler I’ve been using is an online class. Udemy was having a sale so I decided to sign up for a digital art class. While TV is discouraged during this week of no reading, I think instructional videos are a nice loop hole.
These things have been great little lifelines. Some of you may be wondering why I don’t just ask for more work? Because anything I’m going to get is going to be “make-work” work. And if I take it on now, I’ll have to keep doing it even when things pick back up again. I don’t want that shit work on my plate.
The weekend was way easier. There were all kinds of things I could fill my time with outside of TV and reading. I played a whole bunch of volleyball, went to dinner with a friend, went to a science/art festival close to my house (below are some videos and a photo of some of the exhibits), sewed on a whole bunch of buttons onto clothes (a task I had been avoiding forever), made granola, made muffins, walked my dog… All kinds of things. But I can’t do those things at work and look like I’m doing work.
When I came home on Friday I was anxious. I love reading and I had a long day on Friday trying to think of other ways to fill my time. And after a long week I enjoy decompressing with a good book or movie. And those were off the table.
The exercise is to do this for seven days. And I’ve survived so far. But a bulk of my time was not at work and I’m just not positive that I can do this for two days. Which sounds crazy doesn’t it? But the fact that I don’t think I can make it for another two days makes me think that it’s that much more important that I see this through. Maybe I should just be updating my resume at work… My time at this job is definitely ticking down. My job is adding very little value to my life and I am adding very little value to my job. It’s time to change.